I was out to a lunch with a friend for her birthday the other day.
Her oldest son is beginning the college search (read: she is beginning
her son's college search). Anyone who has gone to college or has had a
child go to college knows, the process can be filled with anxiety and
worry, real and imagined. Being a doer from a family of doers, our
friend has gotten a jump on the college search (her son is just only a
junior). She explained that she is a person who knows how much time she
has and will actively work towards her goal until the due date.
We
can contrast that with the thinkers, who ruminate on a subject during
most of the precious available time and only take action when the
remaining time is less than or equal to the time required to complete
the task at hand. That would be us. I'm not making normative
statements here, just identifying two types of people. In this case,
the thinkers were able to assuage the doer's fear that her time was
running out, assuring her that she needn't feel so pressed as to act
rashly.
Our friend had already gone to the public library and checked out
The Princeton Review's 377 Best Colleges and
a heap of related tomes. I laughed a bit at her and a bit at myself:
at her because she can well afford to buy the books ten times over and
would actually read every page twice, and at myself because I hadn't
ever thought of checking the books out from the library, and the
purchased books remain unread on my shelf to this day. You are how you
were raised, it seems.
In any event, our friend was
disappointed but also slightly amused to find her son not reading these
books but rather interlocking their pages as if shuffling playing
cards. Once they were sufficiently intertwined, he would try to pull
them apart to test their (and his own) strength. Perhaps he has a
future in physics and/or bodybuilding.
Noting some
anxiety, I assured my friend that everything would work out as it was
meant to. In general, we're big believers in that. That doesn't mean
we believe in fate. Rather, we believe in our natural ability as people
to find our own way. If you are open-minded and take one day at a
time, you'll always wind up where you belong. Of course, when talking
about college, few people are comforted by hearing that, especially from
me.
But it is true. I find that many and most people
start out thinking that they should go somewhere or do something because
it is what they are supposed to want. My school was right for me, but
it isn't right for everyone. Admittedly, I didn't look at college
guides, and I never visited any other schools, but I followed my gut.
And that's why I got in, I think. Maybe I did exactly what I'm saying
not to do and got lucky, but I don't think so.
So, I
advised, keep reading about and visiting schools until you find
something that you like and that feels right to you. Again, you don't
want to hear it from me, but forget about US News rankings and all that
baloney. The rankings are based on statistical fact, but in viewing
these aggregate data, we forget two things. The first is that the
students they measure already go to that school. They have been
selected by an admissions committee on the basis of its expert
evaluation. The fact that students who go to a school are performing a
certain way says nothing about a student who doesn't go there.
Furthermore, aggregate data are rarely useful enough to reliably predict
the performance of any individual. You are unique and will fit in to
an environment in your own way. And if it's a bad way, then it doesn't
matter what the statistics say: you will do poorly.
Like
I said, admissions committees are the experts when it comes to how
students will do at their school. They review thousands of applications
each year and have a solid grasp on who will thrive and who will
wither, and they will use your application to determine into which
category you fall. Given that, there is that great temptation to tell
admissions committees "what they want to hear." But, trust me, they
will know what you're trying to do and reject you. Even if you've
managed to trick them, you're not doing yourself any favors. By putting
yourself in a place you don't belong, you're doing more harm than
good. You will be miserable.
The best applications, then, are the most honest ones; the ones that tell the committee
who you are and not
what you do;
the ones that show a whole person and not just a student, not just the
captain of the soccer team, not just the president of the student
council. Just be honest about yourself and what's important to you,
what makes you different and unique, what makes someone else want to
know more about you. Just be honest, and you will be fine. And you
will wind up where you belong.
After you wind up where
you belong, you'll find out you didn't know yourself as well as you
thought you did. College is a place where you can expect the
unexpected, where you can expect to find out you aren't the person you
were told you were or who you thought you wanted to be. You'll meet all
sorts of kooks and weirdos and/or find out that you are one. My advice
always is to take every chance you get to hang out with people that are
different from you, as long as they're not doing anything dangerous or
stupid. Most often you'll be surprised how much you like them once you
give them a shot.
To make my point more concrete, I
recounted a story over lunch about a conversation I had had with a
recent college freshman. It was not a girl I knew well, but whom I had
known quite some time. We had volunteered at Sunday School years back.
She had always been a sweet and smart girl, a good sister and daughter,
and as far as I could tell, a good friend to others.
She
was telling me about her small Liberal Arts school, and how excited she
had been to meet her new suite mates. She had been randomly assigned
to a suite of six girls (herself included). The last suite mate to
arrive was a girl named Melissa (names changed). She walked into the
suite wearing jeans, a t-shirt, and a backpack. She had short hair, and
wasn't wearing any makeup or jewelry. By process of elimination, my
friend greeted the girl as Melissa. Melissa responded, "I go by
Matthew. You can call me Matt."
It caught her off
guard. It's not every day you're freshman roommate is a trans man,
after all. I was impressed, though, with how gracefully and maturely
she seemed to have been handling the situation. Sure, she was a little
uncomfortable, at least at first. But she soon realized that being
uncomfortable was a personal problem, ultimately have little to nothing
to do with Matt and his lifestyle. He showed no interest in her other
than being suite mates, maybe even friends.
Back at the
lunch table, our friend was reminded of when she had visited Skidmore
just over 30 years earlier. She told us how her mother thought the
Saratoga Springs campus was simply lovely. But as soon as her father
saw two girls kissing, he had seen enough. They were out of there in a
New York minute. "I'm not like that," our friend said, "you do what you
want, as long as your not in my face about it. I mean, you can do what
you want as long as your not making other people uncomfortable."
It
was a fair point but one that I thought needed qualification. As far
as I'm concerned, everyone needs to look in the mirror and ask
themselves if their own standards of normalcy are making all the weirdos
feel bad about themselves. Everyone deserves the right to be who they
are, and if that makes you uncomfortable, well, then that's your
problem. Just because you're more "normal" doesn't give you priority.
And
that's one of those beautiful things you learn in college. Be who you
are, and learn to tolerate, even enjoy, the people around you for who
they are and what they believe in. Be honest about what you think, but
don't judge others for having different opinions. Don't apologize for
what you have or lie about where you've come from, but also don't look
down on those with less or mindlessly worship those with more. They are
worth no more or less than you are.
So, in the end, my
advice was nothing more than what I would have said in almost any other
situation. Be honest and open, tolerant and accepting, willing to
learn about others but especially about yourself. And stop worrying so
much about what or who you're supposed to be. Frankly, it's the safer
and easier choice anyway. But if you can handle a little risk and are
interested in long-term returns, then bet on yourself. You are a solid investment.